Every time I listen to this verse I become sad at the thought of what I've become. I'm disgusted with myself. Don't ask me about current events because I don't know, I'm too concerned about my looks. If black history just passed I must've have missed it. Its so much easier to put on blush and red lipstick. I would rather go get my hair done and nails. I am obsessed with being beautiful on the outside because it masks the ugly battle I have within. I listen to garbage music to kill out any thoughts of intellect. I'm a vegetarian that consumes 60% junk food. I'm a walking contradiction, the poster child for wavering faith. My faith is weak so I try to read a book in the bible once in a while to push out evil thoughts.
I've been hiding a lot of anger to the point its consuming. I owe a few ppl a "fuck you" and "kiss my ass". But to this day I've remained silent. I would like to take time to ramble off and get my aggression off my chest:
No positive father figure. Kiss my a$$. Shady backstabbing b**ch. F**k you. Liar. Keep it moving. Dishonest much? Inconsiderate b**ch. The sh*t wasn't all roses, BELIEVE that! F**k you, forget you and goodnight.
Not sure about you, but I feel better...
