Pandora

There is something magical about Pandora...how it can expose you to new sounds that flow perfectly with your current state of mind.

Currently listening to...

Meh.

I'm overwhelmed. For the first time, I feel like I'm in a begging state. It's been ongoing for several months. Now it is to the point were I need to take a step back and chill. When you want something, or worse; need something, it automatically puts you in a weaker position. Lately I've been making dumb decisions. I assumed I was taking a chance. You know what they say, " closed mouths don't get fed." But begging people for time, opportunities, consideration, etc., is a bit much. It's not an egotistical thing, but everyone should know their own worth and limits.

Just keep livin'

My mother would always tell me as a child "just keep living". In other words, that was her sarcastic way of warning me of the misfortunes that life brings. Sometimes you look up for just one break in the clouds, but ....life is life I guess.

8 Day Detox: Day _??

Okay so The 8 day detox was a fail, but not for lack of will power. Well, maybe a little. Let me explain what happened...

I have a problem with biting off more than I can chew. On the second day of detox, the weather became very cold and I saw a homeless man on the street. I didn't have any cash or food, so I went in a store to get some cash. The homeless man was very grateful. I have a very sensitive spot for those who are homeless I see on the street. I have never been homeless, but it pains me to think about another person not having shelter, food or clean clothes. The thought is agonizing to the point where I mentally beat up on myself. Last week I made a donation to the Chicago Food Depository. I then got an idea to create a meal plan for myself based off the foods and ingredients on their website.  Even though the website had a more colorful variety, I decided I would have an almond butter sandwich, apple, and one serving of quinoa and vegetables per day. I have no idea where my brain comes up with these concepts. It was imperative for me to stop the juice fast immediately and start this new plan.

The first couple of days on my "depository" eating plan was awesome until I found myself sneaking into a corner store to buy chips and a Snickers. I always mean well. I am a vegetarian and shop at Whole Foods weekly; no matter how much it can break the bank. Every week I over consume food while some people go hungry. It's just not right. I'm back on the "depository" meal plan and will remain until Thanksgiving. Hopefully, by then, I will know the true meaning of giving thanks for all you have.

This is hilarious

The irony of it all

You're always trying to save somebody, and just once, you wish somebody would try to save you-


Kemi